Merriam Webster dictionary defines authentic or authenticity as being true to one’s own personality, spirit, or character.
Sometimes, how we plan things are just not how they end up.
I am unashamed and unafraid to say that I missed the mark. My plan failed. And now I am picking up and starting fresh.
It happens. Sometimes it’s unavoidable. Other times, it just HAS TO happen.
I think, this time it had to. Actually, I needed it to happen just like this.
I write about struggles and overcoming all the time. But what you may not have known is that I was having a bit of an identity crisis recently.
Not with knowing who I am. But actually with this space and the identity of it. And if I am being honest, what Womans Reflection had become was not a reflection of authenticity for me.
I could say that it was with good reason.
When Womans Reflection was started it was created to be a space about personal growth through the reflections of different women in all walks of life. Women with different stories and outcomes as a form of encouragement.
I envisioned a space with multiple regular contributors, and a place where others who wanted to use the platform to share their stories, could. Whether it be to reach a different audience, expand their audience, or whatever the case may have been.
As for me, I just wanted to be the chief transparent sharer. Allowing women the opportunity to see my growth. And consequently, encouraging their own.
I still want that. I have it too!
While it started with a group of women on board, it didn’t last long.
What was a dedicated five dwindled into a consistent two and eventually just me and one other young lady.
While I pondered on why for a while. I realized that it didn’t matter. Outside of the fact that it wasn’t what I was supposed to be doing. It just didn’t matter.
And I know I wasn’t doing what I was supposed to be doing.
I kept talking to God about it.
I mean no amount of webinars, coaching, collaborations could make it come together for the brand. For me. And while I was still pushing to stay “consistent” I was loosing connection with the entire thing.
I couldn’t thoroughly provide an explanation of the goal and mission of the site. And all of this became apparently clear to me when my husband said to me, “I want to help you, but I need to understand what it is that you are doing here.”
If I couldn’t explain it to the person who typically gets me and understands me when I don’t make sense at all. This wasn’t good.
And this was because what it was created for, it just was not.
The word authenticity had been placed in my spirit and I couldn’t shake it. While I was going through this struggle with the identity of my site and brand and I had moved to blogging under my real name, that still didn’t create the connection I needed with the space.
A big thing that became hard to explain was the name of the site.
And while I won’t go full into how that name came about. Because really does it matter now? I can tell you the end result is I was usually looking at a confused face in front of me.
So circle back to that whole authenticity thing.
Being solo, because my one lone contributor had a sudden boom in her own business, which is the goal and I am super proud of her. It was just me left.
I was disconnected from MY brand, and unless I was ready to change it to ONE WOMANS REFLECTION, there was only one other thing that made sense.
Here we are.
Welcome to Kenya Rae!
It is the my Christmas present to myself. The gift of authenticity. A gift that I get to share with all of you!
A place that feel I can speak freely and clearly about what I want, and from my perspective. Since it is just me…
As you can see, a lot of the content came along. But some stuff that didn’t fit anymore. Well it had to go. While I moved to a new address, I kept some of the same furnishings and just spruced them up. And I love the new space. It is my sincere hope that you do to!
So as I enter into a new year, I am Prayed up, trusting God, and in a place of living in authenticity, online and off.
Blessings and happy holidays.