You all may notice her face as a familiar one, as she is a regular contributor here at WRE. Today jihada is sharing with us a bit about her struggle.
Like all the rest of us, she has them. She is acknowledging her struggle with self-acceptance.
I’m a married, mother of two, and I paint! I have recently discovered my painting style is “figurative expressionism”, and I am learning to enjoy every moment of this artist journey. It gets rough, but I do my best to stay positive, motivated, and in the lane God has placed me in. I have done a bit of everything- modeling, pageantry, and jewelry making to name a few but Art (painting & design) is it, and I’m finally listening.
I am motivated by my little people, they’re still young, so seeing the wonder in their eyes is magical; they are almost always in awe.
My husband is an awesome motivator, and very encouraging. My family, they’re my biggest cheerleaders, I’d have to say my mom and dad especially. I could paint a stick figure and they’d be like “oooooh, I’ll buy one of those! AHAHA!”
They’re fantastic. I have also been sent messages from individuals I know, and don’t really know who have told me they see what I do, and they’re inspired to create & share too. That’s amazing! And finally, the process of creating and being ABLE to create motivates me. The ability to just “DO”.
Occasionally, I catch myself like “oh they might think…” and then I snap out of it, because, well, as Cher (Clueless) would say, “WHAT-EVER!”
I haven’t always, am not, and will not always be everyone’s “cup of tea”. Some people prefer coffee. *shrugs*
There was this moment, I don’t remember exactly when it happened, but I became comfortable; comfortable with being myself, wearing what I choose to wear, looking the way I look, and enjoying what I enjoy.I haven't always, am not, and will not always be everyone's 'cup of tea'. Some people prefer… Click To Tweet
I am sure that sounds quite strange to some, but there was a point in my life for MANY years when this was not always the case. Worrying about the opinions of others is a heavy weight to bear. One day I dropped it and realized at that moment I had been allowing “them” to hold me back.
My mom has been my Number one influence! She was a tough one. Not mean, but you couldn’t get much by her. If you did, she was just pretending she didn’t know. I remember writing sentences, and doing book reports in the summertime. BOOOOOO! (Yes, my children will be doing this. LOL!) I also remember having to check items off of a list of “things to do”. I occasionally use lists. I will definitely credit her for that! Ahaha! Thanks mom.
My grandmother is close behind mom. “What God has for you, is for you!” Is a phrase I oftentimes remember when I get frustrated about hearing “no.” And then there is my aunt “Honey, if you can read, you can go anywhere in the world you want to go.” She helped inspire my love for learning. I have truly been blessed.
Self-acceptance has been a struggle for me, and for another woman struggling with that same thing, I would say, Drop the weight of the opinions of others. Once you do, your back will hurt less. It can be tough, it definitely was for me, and even now, I shudder to think of what others think of me and I’m sure what they have to say could hurt (I’m sensitive)- but meh.'I refuse to try and fit this squre peg in a circle hole' - @scanvases Click To Tweet
I no longer allow those opinions to force this square peg to fit into a round hole. It’s quite uncomfortable in there; you hang all out and stuff. Ugh! LOL!
I just love her! She has amazing energy and she is beyond DOPE! It is hard to believe that she has this struggle as cool as I (and many others I am sure) thinks that she is.
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